23, 05, 2012
Pardon me. I apologize – I haven’t blogged in a few weeks. Let’s just say I was out-of-commission. For the last couple of weeks, putting words on a paper, or I should say putting words on the screen seemed a somewhat daunting task. I’ll tell you why.
Candid, I normally am. But, just recently I am actually shy and embarrassed to admit for once that I found myself in a deep, dark, lonely and crippling hole. I felt so incapable of controlling once closeted fears, so much so that I was paralyzed, unable to fight the dark thoughts that clouded my mind. I was so forgone in my own mental, emotional and psychological chaos that I forgot and was afraid to live. I am and probably still undeniably so, experiencing a state of constant anxiety and panic. Anxiety and panic over what? I’m not quite sure.
I can’t quite pinpoint my problems (if any, even exist or if they are merely a figment of my imagination).
I consider myself the average person, going through the natural worries of being a freshman in adulthood. A quarter-life crisis, is what they call it. I’m sure I’m not the only one who raises the questions: What am I going to do for the rest of my life? How much money am I going to make? Where am I going to live? When will I get married? How am I going to survive?
Typical, I reckon.
So why the exaggerated stress over worries that are quite common? I think it may be how one handles stress. Not everyone can cope with stress in nonchalant ways. I’m definitely not one to do so.
Looking beyond doctors and medicine, the question really is: how do I deal with magnified stress on my own?
Answer #1: Speak, Read and Educate yourself
I was searching online looking for forums and blogs that would help me understand this anxiety I had. People that could relate or at least share advice on how to handle stress. It is quite helpful and there’s someone always willing to talk to you. The most interesting piece of information I got, was when I was scrolling through my twitter feed and came across a tweet that read: “If you’re stressed, read this.” This blog post was absolutely brilliant and thought provoking. It made me really dig deep when it brought up the question, “when was the last time you heard yourself breathe?” (click image below to read the post).
Answer #2: Yoga
I can’t believe I am only hopping on this wagon now. Yoga, is anything and everything I was missing in my life. It’s unfortunate that I only realized its value in decreasing with the potential of eliminating stress all together in my life. For all those searching for peace and tranquility, this Hindu practice of mental, physical and spiritual discipline will be healing and rewarding. I’m no pro yet, but the desire to be or at least on par with other yogis is definitely there. My good friend, Sarah Mariano (www.sarahmariano.com) who is a fitness and yoga instructor is kind enough to teach me the power of yoga and all its benefits. In my next post, I’ll show you guys how I’m keeping up in that practice.
Answer #3: Breathe girl, breathe
That is probably the most simple, yet idiotic answer I can share with you. As a person who has constant anxiety and panic attacks, I know how it may be when you’re having an episode – inhaling and exhaling may not always seem to work – the panic, worry and anxiety are still there. It irritating when people say to “breathe” or “relax”. It’s easier said than done, I understand. Your mind is so powerful that it can work for you and even against you. That’s the beauty of it, isn’t it? But to get over an episode and even to overcome stress or a stressful moment is to breathe (no huffs and puffs here, but slow breaths…count if you must). Call it cliche or amateur advice if you will, but your mind, body and soul will thank you for it. I’ve already received my thank-yous.
Breathe. I’ll be back to post again soon.